Looking Back To Move Forward

So in case you hadn't noticed, I've been a little down recently.  My motivation has been lacking and I've been a little depressed.  So yesterday I decided after catching up on the blogs I read, I would blog stalk myself.  I went back to 2011 when I started this and re-read some of my posts.  It made me remember how happy I was when even though I went bar hopping and then to the diner I didn't throw in the towel.  How when I had my very first gain EVER while actively doing WW I didn't let it derail me.  Or how incredibly awesome I thought it was that I was getting in ONE serving of veggies every day.  And it made me realize just how far I've come, and not just with my weight, but with how I react to certain things.  Normally I would have given up after the bar crawl.  A gain would have made me quit.  But I didn't.  I stuck with it and now I am within 7 lbs of my goal!  And you know what I did for the first time in 3 years yesterday?  I put on my size 2 skinny jeans from AE.  And they fit!  I didn't have to do any kind of wiggling or dancing.  I didn't have to suck it in to button them, I didn't have anything hanging over the top.  They just fit.

So that was inspiring enough to force me to workout even though I was extremely tired (I had woken up at 2:30 and could NOT go back to sleep).  I did FE C3C and half of BBL H&T.  Altogether I worked out for 40 minutes.  Not bad considering I didn't want to do anything at all.  Then I put my size 2's back on and wore them all day.  I didn't go anywhere.  I just had a veg day with the kids since the weather wasn't awesome.  But I wore them to remind myself why I wasn't going to go reach for the Twix ice cream bars in the freezer.  I wore them to remind myself only to eat if I was actually hungry.  I wore them so that when I was hungry I would go for the salad or the carrots or something healthy.  And that worked up until I decided to make cupcakes with the kids, lol!  To my credit though, I didn't lick the bowl, or the spoon.  I did lick my fingers though when I was all done.  I bought one of those Babycakes cupcake makers and it said to only put 2 tbsp of batter into every wrapper so I was a good girl and measured.  AND I only had ONE cupcake.  I plugged them into My Fitness Pal and they come out to just 53 calories per cupcake.  I then realized I could have made them with diet soda and it would have been even less, but that's okay.  Next time ;)

Not really sure what I have on tap for today.  I made the kids French toast for breakfast and I'm just finishing up my coffee.  I do have kickboxing at 9 this morning at the gym.  I can't wait to go back.  After not going Sunday and not going yesterday I feel like it's been ages since I have been.  Maybe that's why I'm in such a funk?  I feel like I'm not doing anything because I haven't been at the gym.  Maybe it's hormones?  Speaking of which TOM is a full TWO MONTHS late now.  Two months people.  No, really, I'm not pregnant.  It's driving me nuts, I really need it to get here like yesterday.  Ugh.

And lastly before I wrap this up, I want to talk about my cruise.  I am rooming with 3 people I hav never met before.  Last time I went, I went with a friend and we had 2 roomies, who at the time we booked we hadn't met.  We met one of them at the fall tour and the other we didn't meet until we were in Miami and it worked out great.  They were really awesome.  So I have no doubts in my mind that my roomies this time around will also be awesome.  It's 2 guys and one girl.  I found them on a 311 group on Fb that I have been a member of for a while.  I was stalking th group last Friday looking for people who still needed cabin mates and I sent out soooo many DM's.  They were the first ones to respond, so they are the ones I picked.  So we all exchanged numbers and are now Fb friends.  Anyway, my two guy room mates?  Holy moly are they hot!!!  And I believe they are both single.  I am on lucky lady here.  If that isn't motivation to get my ass to the gym, well I don't know what is!  I mean, I really lucked out here.  So anyway, just wanted to throw that in there.  It really has nothing to do with anything but I just needed to say it.  Have a great one!