Friday, December 23, 2011

Weigh In 12/22

I went last night. 170.0!!  I am down 18.6 lbs!  Which is amazing.  However, I'm critizing myself saying "Why not 20?" and "If you hadn't screwed up so bad at the concerts it could have been 20 lbs..." *sigh*  So the Christmas weekend is upon us, and I haven't worked out today.  I didn't yesterday either.  I really really want to today.  I can workout today and I can workout tomorrow.  Sunday I know is shot, so it's super important for me to get it in now.  If nothing else I should do some walking in place today.  Maybe while I make dinner.  So wish me luck this weekend.  Merry Christmas!

Wednesday, December 21, 2011

To Clarify

In my last post I said that if I had just stuck with this last year I wouldn't need to do this because I would be hot.  Please don't take that to mean that I think all plus sized people are hideous.  Not true.  I know of (and have been friends with) plus size people who look amazing.  In fact, sometimes I wish I could look like them.  That being said, I just don't look good as a big person.  Me personally.  I think I look horrendous.  Just wanted to say that, didn't want anyone getting offended because I really truly did NOT mean it that way.

A Little Depressed

I have been doing pretty well on this whole weight loss thing.  I couldn't resist and weighed myself this morning.  171.  Down 2.4lbs since last week.  I have done SIWW the last 5 days in a row.  I have lost a total of 17.6lbs.  I have noticed the difference in my clothes and in my feeling of general health.  However, I still feel like a super huge fat ass.  Wtf.  I just want this weight to be gone and to be gone now.  If I had actually stuck with it back in the beginning of October I could probably be like another 15 lbs lighter than I am now.  And if I had just stuck with it last year when I did this, I wouldn't even need to have this blog.  I would be hot, confident, and have more than 3 outfit choices.
It just really sucks.  I hate being stuck here in the weight loss trenches.  What sucks even more is that I know for me, there is no immediate way out of this funk.  The only way to shake this feeling is to get back down to 115, which is a long long way from here.  56 more pounds.  It's just this huge number staring me in the face.  *sigh*  I just got to keep on going, I can't quit now.

Sunday, December 18, 2011

Going Strong

Day 2 SIWW!  And I did all 3 circuits!  I only had to modify 2 moves, I just felt I'm not there physically to try and do them.  But I actually finished the workout today.  So that's a big accomplishment.  That and the fact that I worked out 2 days in a row!  Tomorrow is going to be a little challenging, but I think that if I do it right after my son gets on the bus I'll be okay.  I just need to make sure that I get my workout in before my daughter's dance class, otherwise I know I won't do it at all.

Saturday, December 17, 2011

Trying for a Change

I know I haven't exactly been putting forth the effort to get big numbers on the scale every week, but I would be lying if I said that it's not discouraging.  If I want to lose weight at the rate I am used to losing it I need to stop using my Flex Points and I need to be working out like every day.  But when I don't use my Flex Points, that seems to be when I start really falling off.  For instance I get to the weight I want, so I start getting comfortable and eating out, or eating extras at home.  Then I assume that I have just totally screwed up, and I'll get back on track the next day.  One day turns into a week, turns into a month, and well you get the idea.  So while I am extremely impatient and want to be losing 3 or 4lbs a week, I'm thinking that maybe by using my Flex Points and seeing that I can still lose it will keep me from throwing in the towel completely.  Does that make any sense?  Like I'm trying to change my "all or nothing" mentality. 
In other news, I worked out today!  I did the first 2 circuits of SIWW and then walked the last one.  I actually want to try to do it every day.  I think taking days off isn't a good idea because then I just don't seem to be working out at all.....

Thursday, December 15, 2011

Weigh In

Skipping my meeting tonight.  My son has a wrestling match, and since I refuse to eat before I get weighed that means I would be having dinner at about 8:00.  So I weighed in at home.  173.4, so that's what?  2lbs since last week?  Not bad.  Not excellent, but I shall take it!  So I have bounced back from my gain last week, and I am going to try and do better next week!

Tuesday, December 13, 2011

Getting Better

I worked out today!  Yes, it is true.  I did 18 minutes of Zumba this morning, and then it got to be time to make dinner.  I figured since I had to turn the pork chops every 15 minutes anyway I would just stay in the kitchen and walk in place.  I did that for 30 minutes, so in all I worked out 48 minutes today.  Not too bad, I have this feeling of accomplishment.  So that's it, just another quickie update. 

Monday, December 12, 2011

12/12 Update

So I've been doing really well.  Friday I did have a little bit of a splurge, but I only went 8 points over.  I did exercise today.  I did the first 2 circuits in SIWW, and then I let the dvd play and I walked in place the rest of the time.  So that's good, right?  I'm finding it harder and harder to stay on point (and to find the will to exercise).  My goal is to do SIWW M/W/F and T/Th do WATP.  We'll see how that goes.  See you Thurs! 

Friday, December 9, 2011

Weigh In

Up .4, so I am now 175.2.  That's okay, well not really, but it could be a lot worse.  I didn't do so hot as I previously mentioned, and it's less than half a pound, so it's not like a HUGE set back.  WW introduced new Points Plus 2012, so I am getting 3 less Points than I was previously.  Again, not a big deal since I was struggling to eat that much most of the time.  We shall see how I do.  I am going to my mom's today while the kids are in school to make Christmas cookies, and it is going to take everything I have to not sample any, but I can do this!  Until next time....

Wednesday, December 7, 2011

It Hurts!!

So remember how yesterday I said I only did 2 circuits out of 3 so I wouldn't be sore today?  Yeah, turns out 2 was overdoing it a touch.  I can walk okay, but it hurts to bend down and to sit.  Maybe I will try something simple, like WATP, and just walk even when she does kicks and stuff.  So yeah, that's about it.

Tuesday, December 6, 2011


So this past weekend was amazing!  311 on Friday night, then a last minute decision to see them again on Saturday, and I am a very happy girl!!  However, the whole eating thing, eh, could have been a lot worse, but it still wasn't great.  Friday I had cereal for breakfast, a grilled cheese (made with whole wheat rducd calori bread, fat free cheese and butter spray) for lunch, and dinner at the Hard Rock.  I picked something I thought would be healthy, a chicken club with no mayo.  Turns out that sucker is a whopping 800+ calories.  I only ate half of the actual sandwich though.  I ate half, then took the chicken off the 2nd half and ate that.  I figured it was just grilled chicken and I would need to energy.  Then I had 6 beers and on the way home my friend and I split a 10 piece nugget from BK.  But I go nuts at these things and I normally dance around enough to burn off most of what I consumed.

Saturday all I had was a cup of coffee and a WW mac & cheese (which is not good hangover food, fyi) before heading out.  We had dinner at this Irish pub, I got a bbq chicken wrap, and again only ate half. 
I have no idea how many calories or points or whatever, hopefullt it wasn't too bad.  And I only had one beer.  Before leaving however, we were both in desperate need of caffeine.  So we went to this coffee shop in the casino and I had a mocha bomb, which was probably like 400 calories but whatever, it was a 3 hour ride home for the 2nd night in a row, I needed it.

So Sunday I was right back on track, eating like I should eat.  And this morning I found the drive to workout.  I did 2/3 of Jillian Michaels Shred It With Weights (SIWW).  I probably could have finished it, but my legs were starting to feel like jello, and I don't want an excuse to not workout tomorrow.  So that's it.  Will check back later.

Friday, December 2, 2011

Weigh In

I went to WW yesterday kinda nervous.  Last week I had the bar crawl and Thanksgiving, I didn't exactly work out, so I braced myself thinking this probably won't be good.  And I was right.  It wasn't good.  It was freaking great!!  174.8!!!  I lost what?  4.5 since last week?  Something like that.  I am down 6.8 from two weeks ago which was my last "official" weigh in.  So that's pretty awesome.  I am one month in and 13.8lbs down.  Considering I have been a huge slacker in the exercise department not too shabby!  So that's it.  Gotta get the kids ready for school and I have a concert to attend tonight with my best friend (and probably my only reader!).