Monday, October 22, 2012

FMM 10/22

If you’ve taken part in FMM then you know the rules. If you’re new, please take a moment to answer this week’s question on your own blog then add your link in the comments section here at: so we can all see your FMM questions and answers. Please invite your blog readers to add their links here too so everyone has to opportunity to be seen. The idea is to connect with other awesome bloggers so take a moment to post your own FMM post and comment on a couple of other posts. Now it’s time for this week’s topic!

Winning the Lottery
What’s the first thing you would do for yourself if you won 100 million dollars? Note: this question is specifically for you…what would you do for fun after the family and the bills and the obvious stuff was taken care of?

I would buy a shore house down in LBI like this one

Yes, I look up multi million dollar homes that are for sale and fantasize about them, don't judge me!
Then I would purchase a condo in Seaside and completely redo my "fall-spring" home aka the one I live in now.  Then the vacationing would commence!  Australia, Italy, Greece, Ireland......   Oh, and I should probably buy some cars, huh?  Let's do a Toyota Highlander Hybrid (they still make those in hybrids, right? They used to), a Dodge Journey, and some sporty car for the hell of it.  Well, I'm off to look for more summer homes ;)

Friday, October 19, 2012

New Week New Start & Making Decisions

I did really well this week during the week.  Last night though, I decided to take the kids to Friendly's.  Normally we get dinner out on Fridays, but today is the start of my new WW week and I didn't want to be thrown off like last week.  I got what I wanted, but left the fries (go me!).  Despite having such a crap weekend, I am proud of myself for not throwing in the towel for the whole week, which is something I normally would have done.  I would have said "Screw this, this week is shot, I'll just restart Friday."  Well I AM restarting today, but I didn't go apeshit all week long.  Monday through lunch time yesterday I was completely and totally OP.  Still doing better than I would have done, so again I guess I can pat myself on the back for that.

My only "concern" for this weekend is that my mom had been given tickets for breakfast at Applebees tomorrow.  I have NO idea what kind of Points values/calories are going to be involved.  I figure I'll just stick to the pancakes and skip the eggs and sausage and just count it like I would Ihop.

Grace, thank you for your words of encouragement on my last post.  I did read your blog this week, but every time I tried to comment, my computer would freeze.  You're a major inspirtation to me, and I wanted to say that on your blog, but for some reason the laptop was not cooperating!

DB, I also want to thank you for your comments.  They do mean a lot to me, and you continue to inspire me as well.  Might I add, you are looking fabulous!  You go girl ;)

I woke up at 3:30 this morning, don't ask me why.  Anyway, I made the decision that I am going to take the kids to Disney next year.  Yup, that's what I do at 3AM, I make major financial decisions.  I'm going to start saving now and I am going to use my tax return and we are going.  They have yet to go on a "real" vacation, and this past year has been tough and brought on a lot of changes so I figure we could all use some time away.  I already started looking at it this morning and it is totally doable, even on a budget.  I must be either really brave or really insane taking a 7 year old and a 5 year old to Disney by myself, but whatever.  YOLO, right?  I really hate that, but it's true.  Unless you believe in reincarnation.  In any case, we're gonna carpe diem all over Orlando.  And I'm going to try very very hard not to say anything to the kids.  At all.  I want to just wake them up the day that we're leaving, put them in the car and go.  But I suck at surprises.  So that's that.  Happy Friday!

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

Big Fat F

I really feel like I've been walking around with the Vader March playing around me.  You know, like my own little theme song.  If Jabba the Hut had a song, that would probably be more appropriate because that's kind of what I feel like.  This past weekend was horrible.  If eating right was a class I would get like an F minus.  I am talking binging of epic proportions people.  I was brave and hopped on the scale today to see just how much damage was done.  120.4.  Not a huge number, but you need to remember that last week I was 117.  Not good.  Part of m is hoping that it's because I still have some bloat or some grease sitting in my stomach, but that's probably not true.

So here's a recap.  Friday I had Dairy Queen TWICE.  Yup, I went to DQ twice in one day!  The first time I was good and got a smal cup.  The second time I got the peanut butter bash again.  I also had 2 slices of Domino's pizza, 4 breadsticks, 2 Lender's bagels, ice cream from my freezer and 2 biscuits from KFC.  That was Friday.  Saturday I tried to get back on the wagon, but ended up buying these cupcakes from this bakery that had set up shop in the mall.  I ate 2 of them right away, then when I came home I had 5 mini bagels with peanut butter and jelly, meatloaf, mashed potatoes, ice cream, and a pack of M&M's.  That was Saturday.  But Sunday, well, that was probably the worst.  I had 4 apple cider donuts, a bagel with cream cheese, a turkey & cheese sandwhich on a bakery roll with mayo, a half box of chewy Chips Ahoy, and then I went to Fuddruckers.  Although I didn't finish my fries, but that was only because I think I was about to explode.  When I got home I ate one of the chocolate chip cookies from Fudd's, but I put it in the microwave first and then put some ice cream and fudge on top.

And all of that is NOT counting my breakfast or my morning snack, and Friday and Saturday I didn't even put my lunch or afternoon snack's in there because that was the food I had planned on eating.  Can you just IMAGINE what my caloric intake was?  I don't even want to think about it.  I tell everyone not to be fooled by my size, I can pack it away as you can see here.  I'm not sure where I put it all.  I really think I could do competitive eating if I really wanted to.  But I don't.  I was so bloated (and still am a little bit) and felt so disgusting.  I don't even know why I did that.  I have been back OP since Monday.  I made it to step, I didn't work out yesterday, but I am going to kickboxing today after I take A to school.

I wish I could know why I just haven't been with it.  How many weeks in a row is it now that I'm binging on the weekends?  Thankfully this was the only truly major one, otherwise I would be in serious trouble.  But I shouldn't be binging at all.  If I wanted DQ, okay fine, get what I want, count it and be done.  Don't go back.  If I wanted a cupcake, okay, ONE and be done.  So now I have to fight to get back to where I was.  I packed it on in 3 days and it's going to take me a week or two to get it off.  I don't want to dwell on what I did, I want to move forward, but I NEED to figure out what made me do it so I can prevent it from happening again.

Anyway, I have to go get my day started.  Hope you're all having a good week!

Thursday, October 11, 2012

WI Day

Well, it's time to pay the piper.  118.2.  That's still up, what 2 lbs from 2 weeks ago?  It was earned, I deserved it.  Still sucks though.  Although like I said in one of my previous posts from this week, at least I caught myself before it got really out of control.  My new plan seems to be working nicely.  I went to kickboxing yesterday, stuck to my plan, feeling pretty good.  This is a drive by post because I have to get ready to head into the office, but I promised an update with my WI and so here it is.  Have a great day!

Wednesday, October 10, 2012

Day 1 Report

I did really well yesterday.  As soon as I finished posting, I got up and did FE C1S.  I followed my plan, although I did have 16 Teddy Grahams (90 cals) after I was supposed to be done eating.  But they are all gone now!  I have not stepped on the scale, I will weight until tomorrow which is official WI day for me.  I will be heading to kickboxing as soon as I drop my daughter at school.

For the most part yesterday I felt very satisfied.  I did get a little snacky in the afternoon, so I was glad that I had only had 100 calories as a snack leaving me with another 50.  I had 1/2 serving of potato straws which was 65 calories, and then I just subtracted that from my dessert.  All in all it worked out pretty well.  Breakfast has by far been my favorite.  Yesterday and today I had 1/2 cup egg beaters, scrambled, and 2 Aunt Jemima low fat pancakes along with my coffee of course =)

So here's to another day OP, I'm feeling pretty good.  Will check back after WI tomorrow!

Tuesday, October 9, 2012

This Isn't Working

First of all, thank you to those who commented yesterday.  Grace I really like that idea from the book.  I will absolutely remember that.  Kelly yup, I just have to move on, what's done is done. 

Last night it happened again though.  Old habits die hard.  I had 4 pretzel bites at the movies with the kids.  Four.  I came home, found it on myfitnesspal, and discovered it was only 123 calories.  And I let that measley 123 calories ruin my day.  I did really good until after dinner.  Down hill from there.  Still nowhere near as bad as in the past, but this is 3 days this week now.  But I think I know what the problem is and I believe I have a solution.

The problem is that I'm taking this whole eating smaller meals thing to the extreme.  ALL of my meals are UNDER 200 calories.  All of them.  Then I end up snacking because I am hungry (duh).  So what I am doing now is making breakfast 200 calories, my morning snack 100, lunch 250, afternoon snack 150, dinner 300 and then I have 200 calories left for dessert and one more snack if I want.  That gives me a grand total of 1200 for the day until I lose what I just gained back.  Oh, and in case you were wondering, I've been following the myfitnesspal plan, and not WW.  I DO still count the weekly points though for when I'm going out or I feel like treating myself.  Until recently that seemed to be working.

As for exercising, I have a plan for that too.  Starting today.  Tuesday, Thursday, Saturday I will be following the FE plan, and Monday,Wednesday, and Friday I will be hitting the gym.  I know this is a similar exercise routine to what I had said last week, but I didn't have anything concrete for when I was working out at home.  I believe I said I would do whatever DVD I felt like.  Well obviously that hasn't really worked out.  I think I need a more specific plan in place in order for me to really follow it.  So that's my plan, and I am still under 120 so I have caught myself before it started getting really out of control.  I am going to go and do my workout now before I have to get the kids off to school and my butt to work.  Will check in soon!

Monday, October 8, 2012

Mini Binge Take 2

Saturday was a complete disaster.  My mom has trouble with her legs sometimes, and recently it's really been bothering her.  So Saturday I volunteered to make my lasagna for her.  I had NO intention of eating it.  I ate during the day with a completely different dinner plan.  Well my mom insisted that I have the lasagna.  I mean she flat out told me I had to eat it.  My mom is really not some one to argue with.  So that started a whole downward spiral which ended up involving 2 Grands biscuits and 2 Ihop cream cheese stuffed french toast pasteries.  Sigh.  I felt so disgustingly full afterwards.  And you know what else?  It didn't taste as good as I remembered it tasting.  Everyone else loved it.  I thought it was good, but I remember it being amazing.  Funny how tastes change.

I hopped right back on the wagon yesterday though.  I did munch a little (we went to Sam's Club, there were free samples) but I counted every bite.  As of this morning I'm back up to 118.6.  So a little over a pound, but I deserved it, and this is maintenance after all, I can fluctuate.  I really want to hit the gym this morning, but Stacy isn't teaching step.  It's the instructor I don't like, so I'm going to have to come up with a plan b.

That is all for now.  Hope you all enjoyed your weekend!

Saturday, October 6, 2012

Emotional Control

So yesterday, I didn't go to spin.  I just really don't care for it.  I loved the first class I had taken.  We were doing "rolling hills" now they're doing endurance and while I know I would benefit from it, I freaking hate it.  So I did FE C3C instead.  Hey, at least I did SOMETHING, right?  Then it was off to dance class and work.  I left work early and took A to go get a mani.  Afterwards we picked up R from school, played at the park for an hour, then went to Ihop.  I got my usual simple & fit 2x2x2, and that was my Points for the day. 

Then I decided we should go to Dairy Queen.  Still didn't do bad.  I got a small vanilla cup with hot fudge and peanut butter.  Roughly 10PP, no biggie, new week, new weeklies.  Then I got into it over the phone with P.  Let the stress eating commence.  I really didn't do overly horrible.  I had 2 reduced fat Grands biscuits (8PP) and a 100 calorie pack (3PP).  So I used 21 weeklies, and I did work out, so all in all not bad.  I'm not upset about the DQ, I wanted it so I got it, I got a small instead of a medium or a large and that was fine.  What I'm upset about is that I still allow my emotions to control my eating.

Obviously I'm still a work in progress here.  Stress eating is still something I do and I need to fix that.  I am proud though that I was able to stop there.  A year ago, I would have kept going.  There would have been ice cream, and pretzels and probably one or two more biscuits if we're being honest.  So I have made progress, but I'm still not quite there yet.  Today is another day.  I have to take R to soccer, then wrestling sign ups, then go to work.  After all that I promised my mom I would come over and make my world famous lasanga for dinner.  Okay, so maybe it's not world famous, but it's damn good.  Well, that's it for today folks.  Enjoy your weekend, I will check back soon!

Thursday, October 4, 2012

I'm Here!!

I know I said I would blog every other day, and I really meant to, but my computer had a virus and Windows wouldn't even start.  I have not been purposely neglecting you!  And thanks to Kelly for texting me yesterday to see how I was doing.  Love ya girlie!

Okay, so aside from not blogging, I HAVE been making good on my other October commitments.  I did go to step on Monday, my butt was at kickboxing yesterday and I have been pretty on point with my eating.  I did take Tuesday off from working out for two reasons.  One was that since it's been so long since I have done a decent workout, my legs were killing me from step the day before.  Two to be honest, was because it was a crappy nasty day and I just wanted to lay in bed after work in my sweats and read Game of Thrones.  So there you have it.  I will workout today once I get home from work.  I think I'm feeling an FE dvd today.  My upper body is really killing me from kickboxing, so not sure if I'm up to Jillian.

Oh, so proud mommy moment if I may.  Yesterday my daughter, A, was awarded the Superstar Award at her preschool for being "extremely kind to her class and sharing."  So proud of my little baby!  Actually, I'm proud of both my kids.  R has been practicing his writing, and it shows.  I really can't believe the strides he has made in just the last month.  So that's it, I have less than an hour before I have to leave for work, so I just wanted to stop by and let you know I have not forgotten my promise to be here more often!