Wednesday, November 30, 2011

Setting Mini Goals

I recieved an e-mail from Weight Watchers about how to stay motivated.  With so much weight to lose it is very easy to get discouraged (otherwise I wouldn't still be trying to do this!!), so it is important to set interim goals. They also said to set some non scale goals.  That has got me thinking about my biggest triumphs here.  Have I been losing at a stellar rate?  No.  But despite some setbacks (like last week), I have not given up.  I have not, as my leader says, let a lapse turn into a collapse.  That in itself is a little empowering.  To know that I am capable of living my life, and on special occasions being able to eat what I want to eat and not have it completely ruin me.  So anyway, as of last week (pre Thanksgiving), I had reached my 5% goal.  I'm hoping that I have done well enough to still be at that weight when I get to weigh in tomorrow.  I just want to have lost what I possibly gained last week.  That's all.  I haven't exactly been on the exercise wagon this week, I do have to get back to that.  So that's all, I will update after weigh in tomorrow.

Sunday, November 27, 2011

Post Turkey Day

Okay, so things didn't exactly go as I had planned.  Wednesday night I went out with a friend, thinking it was going to be just an hour or so and like 2 drinks.  That turned into a bar crawl which ended with a 2:30 am trip to the diner.  After about 6 drinks I wasn't really all about counting points, but still didn't do quite so bad.  Instead of ordering chicken fingers and disco fries for myself, my friend and I split them.  Thanksgiving day I had a light breakfast as planned, and said the hell with it for the rest of the day.  But I was very prou of myself, I didn't have 2nds of anything (except for the chocolate cream pie, but even then the 2 slices I had were very tiny!).  So was it bad?  Yes.  Could it have been worse?  Oh hell yes.  I have been a good girl since.  Friday I was right back on plan.  I have been taking the kids to the park the last 3 days and have been walking/power walking the track following them on their bikes, and I have been staying within my points.  While I'm not expecting a really big loss on the scale this week, I think it won't be too too bad, I have done my best with damage control.  So that's about it, will update later in the week!

Wednesday, November 23, 2011

Early Weigh In

 I weighed in today, because I probably won't have a chance tomorrow, and there is no way in hell I'm going to weigh myself Friday (that's like setting myself up for failure), so I did it today.  179.4, down another 2.2!!!  Bringing my total to 9.2lbs, yay!  It feels so good to be back out of the 180's.  I worked for it though, I only took 2 days off of working out, which reminds me I gotta do it today, and I watched what I was eating.  I am trying to mentally prep myself for tomorrow, I hope I can control myself, I think I'll be alright.  So that's it, have a happy Thanksgiving everyone, will check back Friday and let you know how I made out.

Saturday, November 19, 2011

Onward and Upward

So today I was feeling ambitious and did a mid-length medium instensity Zumba class.  By the end of the 3rd song my legs felt as though they would fall off.  I made it though, so proud of me!  Not sure I will be doing that again anytime soon (maybe a mid-length low instensity class), but I feel accomlished.  I also burned almost 600 calories, so yay!

So things are moving along nicely, I'm doing really well with this weight loss thing now.  The only thing is I just feel so damn tired all the time.  I seriously feel as though I could sleep another 10 hours or so when I get up in the morning.  And it's not like I don't sleep.  I get between 7 and 8 hours of sleep every night, but every morning it is just a struggle for me to get out of bed.  The only other time in my life I have ever been this tired is when I was pregnant (which I know for a fact I am NOT, so let's not think that okay?).  I remember when I was pregnant the first time I would get like 9 hours at night, get up, have breakfast, take a 3 hour nap, do some chores, have lunch, take a 2 hour nap, do some more stuff, have dinner, hang out, go to bed.  That's 14 hours of sleep a day.  When I was pregnant the 2nd time I didn't get to sleep quite that much, but I made sure I slept whenever my son slept.  I would do anything to be able to sleep like that again!

Well, that's about it.  I think I'm going to call it a night!  Until tomorrow!

Friday, November 18, 2011

So Far So Good

So far I managed to fit in a short Zumba class on the Wii (which is about 20 min).  I wasn't sure if I was going to be able to do a 2nd one, so I did a medium instensity class instead of the low intensity (which is what I did yesterday).  Holy crap was it hard.  Not even talking about the intensity, just the steps in some of the songs were hard as hell.  But I did the best I could and made it through. 
Thanksgiving is looming overhead.  I am not looking forward to it at all.  There is going to be some amazing food that I wait all year for.  You know, the stuff that only ever gets made on Thanksgiving or Christmas.  It is going to be hard to watch the portions.  So my plan is to workout in the morning, have a WW smoothie for breakfast, and then just do the best I can.  Oh, and in case you didn't know, the holidays are a little more complex for me than they are for most people.  Every year I have 3 Thanksgiving dinners, and 3 Christmas dinners.  I also have 3 birthday celebrations each for my kids and I.  That's right.  I have triple the amount of partying/feasting that most people do.  God give me strength to make it through this.

Thursday, November 17, 2011

Found Something I Like

So today after getting my son on the bus and dropping my daughter at her school, I ran over to Target and bought myself Zumba Fitness 2 for the Wii.  I saw the ad for it last night while watching t.v., it looked like something I could do, so I got it.  I just did my first class, I chose low intensity to start, and I did a short class (25 min), and I loved it!  It was so fun, the music was great, and the time just flew.  I want to try to do another low intensity short class tonight.  Oh, and I'm totally counting this.  Last night while I was watching t.v., every time there was a commercial break I got up and walked around.  I figure I put in about 20-25 minutes of walking (I tried to time it).  So that was good.  Also, because I am just going to be super busy tonight, I have an appointment to go to and I have a parent teacher conference, I don't think I will be able to make it to my meeting.  So I decided to weigh myself this morning.  181.6, down another 2.4!!  Which considering my lack of exercise is pretty good!

Wednesday, November 16, 2011


Finally I managed to get off my ass and do something.  Yesterday I took a 30 minute walk around the mall, AND I played Just Dance 2 for like 25 minutes.  It totally counts.  So I'm hoping I can keep the momentum going here and do it again tonight.  So that's it.  Eating is still going well, I have my weigh in tomorrow, so I will post afterwards and let you know how it went! 

Monday, November 14, 2011

No Worries

Yeah, I know I disappeared for a few days.  You might be thinking "here we go, she gave up already" or you might not really give a crap.  Either way, I did not give up, I'm still doing what I need to be doing, I just happened to have a usy weekend.  Saturday my daughter had to make up a dance class, and my son had soccer.  Sunday we went to go visit my dad, step mom #2, my brother and his girl.  Then on the way home we stopped at Toys R Us and picked up one of the kids Christmas presents which they got early.  I figured they should get it now for 2 reasons. 1) It's a really awesome gift and they might not care about anything else Christmas morning.  2) It's a power wheels (well, it's made by a different company, but it's the same thing).  Point being, if they got it at the end of December, there will more than likely be snow, so what would I say to them?  "Here, I bought you tis really awesome car.  You can look at it for the next 3 months while we wait for the snow to disappear."  This way they at least get to use it a little.

So anyway, doing really well.  My dad killed me though.  He bought this like Hershey pie kind of thing, you know the kind you keep in your freezer until you're ready to eat it.  I absolutely had to have a piece!  But I took about 1/4 of the amount I would have normally taken (which probably ended up being the serving suggestion!), and I counted it.  So I used 8 Flex Points this week.  Oh well.  And I have been playing Wii Sports a lot.  Is it a really great work out?  No.  Is it more than what I have been doing?  Absolutely.  So there you have it.  Will check back soon!

Friday, November 11, 2011

Pushing Through

So today was another day.  Great with the food, and I spent an hour walking around the mall with the kids.  Was it the kind of exercise I was aiming for?  No, but I did something, which is the point.  At some point (like tomorrow) I'm going to have to stop settling for less when it comes to working out.  I want to fit in my size 0 skinny jeans again, wear my cute little tops from bebe.....I want some wardrobe options dammit!  'cause right now, I have none.  I have three pairs of sweats I wear and my maternity shirts.  That's right people, I said maternity shirts.  Which, by the way, are meant to accentuate a pregnant belly (which I do not have) so they make me look even fatter.  Great.  So yeah, tomorrow is another day.  At least I'm staying on track with eating well (and within my Points).

Thursday, November 10, 2011

Awww Yeah!

So without exercising and I used some of my Flex Points (which again, HUGE deal for me) I lost 4.6lbs!!  I am excited about it, I do think it's awesome, but I can't help but still be pissed.  Not pissed at the number, but at myself.  Like if I had actually worked out this week, I could have lost like 6 or 7.  I seriously kinda feel like I failed.  But I am determined now.  My heart admittedly wasn't really in this, but seeing that number has fueled my fire.  This week I am committed to working out at least 30 min/day 5 days.  I also need to hydrate more.  The one good thing I did do this week, was I started having a salad.  If I got hungry around 2 or 3 I would just make myself a salad.  Go me!  I am also hoping that since I did go over my daily Points allowence and saw tahat it really wasn't a detriment to me at the scale that I can over come that all or nothing mentality.

Tuesday, November 8, 2011

Baby Steps

I still haven't exercised.  Well, that's not entirely true.  I did one lap around the track when I took the kids to the park today.  I know, big deal right?  I need something or some one to give me a big kick in the ass, seriously.  I am, however, still doing great with the eating part.  I have been eating healthier this week than I have in a while.  I'm actually eating a salad everyday (those who know me personally, know this is huge)!  I've never been a big fruit/veggie person.  I have certain things that I will eat (lettuce, peas, broccoli, carrots, green beans), but I just don't normally.  When I'm hungry, I don't normally say to myself "Why don't I make myself a big salad?"  No, I say "I wonder if there are any cookies left?" or "Maybe I'll have a huge bowl of ice cream with some hot fudge."  This would probably be why I'm fat.  That coupled with the fact I am lazy as anything and would much rather read or check my facebook than do a workout tape.  Like right now.  I could be (and should be!) working out.  But what am I doing?  Writing in my blog. *smh*  Oh well, baby steps right?

Monday, November 7, 2011

This Totally Sucks

As the title states, this really sucks.  Day 4 and I already hate this.  I have no motivation, no drive, nothing.  I still haven't exercised.  Ugh.  I've been doing really well staying within my Points and everything, but I don't want to.  I would be lying if I said the kids' Halloween candy wasn't calling me.  And I would do anything for a DD medium iced caramel mocha light and sweet with a toasted blueberry bagel with butter.  But I'm hangin in there, staying strong.  Just have to start moving....

Saturday, November 5, 2011

Day 2

Again, really well with the eating.  That is so not the problem.  The problem is getting my ass in gear and actually working out.  Although I did walk around the mall today, so that kind of counts right?   And lets be honest, there was no way I was working out last night.  Tomorrow is another day, but I really need to start focusing.  I will only lose so much weight by not eating so damn much.  If I want real results, I'm gonna have to bust my ass.....

Friday, November 4, 2011

So I Totally Suck

Okay, okay, so I fell off course a little.  No biggie.  I got some money together, and last night rejoined Weight Watchers for the millionth time in my life.  But I subscribed to the monthly pass.  I have paid for an entire month, so I can't quit.  If I quit it would be like wasting money and that is something I never, ever do.  So here I am finishing up day 1.  I didn't exactly workout (hey the day isn't over yet!), but I have been keeping track of what I have been eating, and I have been doing well.  As of last night I weigh 188.8 (yikes, is that for real?).  I will get back to where I was, and as a reward I will be giving myself a make over.  I even bought myself the NYX Haute Jersey pallet as incentive.  When I have lost all the weight, I am going to get my hair and nails done, and buy myself something hot!  So here we go again, hopefully I stick with it this time!