I got my 30DS in yesterday! That makes Day 9 out of 10, so today is my last day on level 1. I stayed within my Points yesterday, had some baby carrots and even a banana! Wow, I actually had fruit! So proud of myself. And I got an amazing night's sleep Friday night. Last night was okay, I probably should have gone to bed a half hour before I actually did, but whatever.
So the bad news? I have become really obesessive with weighing myself. I used to just weigh myself on Wednesdays so that way I kind of knew ahead of time how bad or good it was going to be at weigh in on Thursday. Then I started weighing myself (daily) starting on Mondays. Just so I knew how much harder I had to bust my ass to get a good number on Thursdays. Now (starting last week) I weigh myself every single day. Every morning before breakfast. This is something I have never done on WW. I never weigh myself at home. Weighing myself daily was something I did when I was anorexic. Does this mean my eating disorder is back? No, but it could be a sign that I may be headed in that direction.
I am trying really really hard not to feel like I have to be "perfect" on WW. I have allowed myself to use my my Points allowence which is a huge step for me. I even gained once (back in December) and didn't cry. I don't want to start moving backwards, but I'm not sure how to stop without falling completely off plan and regaining all the weight I just worked so hard to lose. I find that I am really strugging this time, and I don't know why.