I just can't see it. I look in the mirror and I don't see a skinny person. And I don't "feel" like a skinny person. What's a skinny person supposed to feel like anyway? I saw a friend of mine last week that I haven't seen in a year and a half. We've been friends literally our whole lives, since we were 3. Well, she's a year younger than me, so she was 2, but whatever. And she was always so thin and pretty and everything I always wanted to be. And every time I stood next to her I felt so.....frumpy. Well now, we're about the same. I may even weigh less than her . But standing next to her I still felt like the fat friend. Why? Will this horrible feeling of being the fat, frumpy, unattractive friend EVER go away? I really wish I knew how to get past this.
Anyway, school is in full swing. I have only been to he gym once this week. I had every intention of going today, but my friend was in need of transportation, so I skipped. I won't be going tomorrow since I have to go to work in the morning. I WILL be at spinning Friday morning no matter what. Saturday I can't, R has soccer and I just found out that they are now accepting 4 year olds, so A will b joining this week. She's been asking to do soccer for a while now. R's session is from 10-11 and A's will be 11-12. And I WILL be at the gym Sunday, Monday, and Wednesday this coming week. And I will NOT use not going to the gym as an excuse not to exercise. I did go for an hour long walk yesterday with my daughter, so while it's not great, it's better than nothing.
Anyway sorry this is so short, I need to get ready for the PTO meeting tonight. I really want to be as involved as I can, I think it's very important.