Celebration

Today is my friend's birthday.  So I took her out last night.  Holy crap, I haven't drank like in almost a year!  Surprisingly, I'm not feeling too hungover this morning.  Anyway, I didn't do RI30 yesterday.  I was going upstairs to get the kids' clothes for their dad's and I stepped wrong and now my knee hurts so I skipped it.

I have to say though, despite my horrible binge drinking, I did very well last night.  I took my roomie to On The Border, one of my absolute favorite restaurants that I NEVER go to because the closest one is about 40 minutes away.  I did have a few of the bottomless chips that they bring to the table.  I ordered a create your own combo.  I really really REALLY wanted the chicken flautas.  So I got that (the combo order only comes with one flauta) and I got the house salad with the dressing on the side as the other half of my combo.  Perfect balance.  One healthy option and one treat that is special because like I said, I never get to go there.  Because it is her birthday, we did get a dessert.  We got the Kahlua ice cream pie.  Oh.  My.  Goodness.  It was SO good!  We split one, it was probably still a good 400 calories, but better than having the whole thing!  Then we walked around GSP for two hours before coming back to town and hitting the bars.  Oh, and I didn't get any snacks while at the bar!  I wanted to, but I didn't.  So I'm calling yesterday a win.


I'm going to see how my knee is today and then decide if I'm doing RI30 or not.  If not, I will still walk so at least I've done something.  Hope you're all having a great weekend!

Busy Weekend and a Little Frustration

Day 2 week 2, done!  Ugh, it's brutal.  Not gonna lie.  And I had to do some mods, but for the most part I did the workout the way it's supposed to be done and I did the whole thing, so I'm pretty proud of myself.  My downfall this week : giving into temptation at work.  I had a cookie 3 days this week!  I was doing so well with staying away from them,  But I stopped at one, and didn't let it ruin the rest of my day.  I counted it and moved on.  And Monday is the start of a new week, so I'm going to try and not let that happen again.

So I am having a relaxing start to what is going to be a very busy weekend,  I made the kids breakfast and we had it in bed watching Ratatouille.  Such a cute movie!  I have to get a workout in, shower, get my son to t-ball, then head over to Bergen County to see my dad before dropping the kids at their dad's in Passaic.  And it's my friend's/roomie's birthday tomorrow so I told her we would go out tonight.  Nothing crazy.  We're probably going to hit up the Garden State Plaza, do some window shopping, get some dinner and just hang out.  Tomorrow I have to put in some time at the office, my mom wants me to take her to Sam's Club, I have to do RI30, then the kids are coming home and we're having dinner with my mom.  After that, as long as my roomie is back in time I'm supposed to go hang out with T again, unless B texts me..... ;)  So glad she understands.

It's been so long, I can't really remember if I've told you guys about B.  I met him last year on a dating site.  Turns out he and I actually went to school together (although he's a few years older than me) and he was best friends with my best friend's older brother.  Small world, right?  So we met (I had only lost about 30lbs at that time so I was about 160) and had a great time and went on a 2nd date.  That right there meant a lot.  It showed that he didn't really care what I looked like, he seemed to be interested in me.  I know there are some guys out there who like bigger women, but I happen to know who is ex is (same town, same school again, no I'm NOT a stalker!) and she's pretty freaking tiny.

So anyway, he and I have been hanging out/seeing each other, whatever you want to call it since last January.  And I can say pretty certainly that what we're doing goes beyond the boundaries of just friendship (and no, we have not slept together!) but I have no idea what it is that we are.  He'll text me for weeks, we'll hang out, yadda yadda yadda, and then I won't hear from him for like 3 weeks.  Sometimes it's been longer.  And up until 2 weeks ago, I hadn't even seen him since November!  Bottom line, I'm confused as hell.  It's sooooo frustrating!  We picked up right where we left off which kind of left me more confused.   I know I need to have the DTR talk, but that's not something I feel should be done over text.  So I'm really hoping that I get to see him sooner rather than later so I can find out what the hell is going on with us.  I really like him, but I'm not going to just sit around here and wait forever.  Yeah, so that's pretty much that.  Alright, I'm going to stop procrastinating now and start my day.  Have a great one!

Day 2 Week 2

Holy Hannah, I forgot how hard week 2 of RI30 is.  Jillian, I love you, but are you crazy? First circuit cardio is 2 minutes, TWO WHOLE minutes of plank.  Plank jacks and mountain climbers.  That may not seem like such a big deal.  "It's only 2 minutes, that's not that bad, quit complaining...."  Well, it IS that bad when you're just getting into the swing of working out and you're about 30 lbs overweight.  I know, I know, I did it to myself.  Whatever.

And I couldn't resist, I hopped back on the scale today.  Back to 153.2.  Happy with that. On top of RI30, I took my daughter to the park yesterday after work and got about a 30 minute walk in.  That was pretty good.  I'm a little nervous for this weekend, I'm supposed to go to my dad's tomorrow for lunch.  Not sure how it's going to go, and he almost never knows ahead of time what we're going to have.  I might just bring my own.  Well, that's about it.  I gotta hop in the shower and get the kids ready. Happy Friday!

WI 4/24

153.8.  So I'm up .6 from yesterday.  Ugh.  I did pretty well yesterday too.  Oh well, today is another day and I have a date with Ms Jillian after work.  Hopefully it will be nice out again so I can take my daughter and head to the park afterwards.  We spend the whole afternoon there yesterday, it was great!  Well, I need to keep this short, gotta get the kids and myself ready.  Will check back tomorrow!

Day 6 Done

I did it.  Six days in a row of RI30.  Today is my rest day, but I will probably head over to the park since it will be nice after work and do some laps.  Tomorrow I start week 2, eek!  I really have to say how impressed I am with how quickly I saw results in this first week.  If you recall, the other day I posted about how I went from being only able to do 5 push ups to 15, well yesterday I upped it to 17, which took me through the entire 30 seconds of the exercise.  Also, yesterday I was able to hold the hollow man pose for the full 30 seconds!  Hell to the yeah people.

Tomorrow is my official WI day, I'm a little anxious for it.  I know I held off on getting serious for way too long, and now Memorial Day weekend is 4 1/2 weeks away and I can't help but put some pressure on myself.  Now I know there is no way in hell I will be bikini ready in 4 1/2 weeks, but I would like to be under 140.  Extremely difficult, but doable.

And I am really kicking myself for not taking measurements last week.  While I've only lost about 5lbs this entire month, I can already feel a difference in my clothes, and dare I say I can even see some difference in the way I look!  It feels good, not gonna lie.  So that's all I have for today.  Have a great one!

Update 4/23

Sorry I wasn't here yesterday.  It was just very busy and I didn't have the time.  I almost talked myself out of working out (by the time I had a chance it was already after 3!), but I am proud to report I sucked it up and did it!  5 days in a row of RI30.  And I weighed myself, which I have been doing every other day.  153.8!  That's crazy!  I lost almost a full pound in 2 days!  AND I went out Sunday night with a dear friend of mine.

I did really well though.  We went to Ruby Tuesday and I got the salad bar (just lettuce, a tiny bit of cheese and like a 1/2 scoop of the lite ranch), a grilled chicken breast with some kind of bbq sauce (I really wanted the other one that was smothered with cheddar and bacon) and a side of steamed broccoli.  Oh and one Miller Lite.  See?  I did very well.

Anyway, I need to get the kids ready for school and myself ready for work so I am going to keep this short.  Oh did I mention I picked up a 2nd job?  My hours at the office got cut, so I had to get a 2nd part time job.  And let me just say how torturous it is for some one watching their weight!  I work in the cafeteria at my old high school and us lunch ladies get to eat for FREE.  Which wouldn't be so bad except our food is actually GOOD.  We have deli sandwiches, pizza, burgers, meatball subs, mozz sticks, chicken sandwiches.....I'm telling you, eating in a school caf nowadays is like eating in a damn restaurant!  So anyway, that's it.  I'll check in with you guys later.

Progress

I am on a roll here!  Fourth day in a row doing RI30!  I gotta say, I feel pretty good.  I forgot how awesome a good workout feels.  And while I am disappointed in myself for allowing myself to gain 38 lbs, I am so happy I caught myself here.  Normally I sky rocket back up to 175 or 180 before I decide to do something.  The fact that I got back OP before I even hit 160 is so great.  It would have been greater if I got back on track before I hit 140, or even 130 for that matter, but you can't undo the past right?

So about RI30, I am already seeing results.  Not so much in the way I look, but in what I can do.  Day 1, I could do 5 regular push ups before having to drop to my knees.  Yesterday (day 3) I could do 10, and today I managed 12.  Also, but yesterday I was able to hold plank for the full 30 seconds!  Isn't it amazing how quickly your body can change and adapt?  It's also extremely motivating.  I still can't hold hollow man, although last year when I was in pretty good shape, I couldn't do it either so I am willing to cut myself some slack here.

Tuesday I am going to head back to the track and continue training for that 5K I want to do.  I haven't walked since Wednesday.  It's been too cold.  I know, I know, lame ass excuse, but I really hate the cold.  And the warm day we had, it rained.  The good thing about it is that that is what got me to do RI30 in the first place.  I knew I needed to workout if I wasn't hitting the track, so that's what I did.  See?  I'm getting better.  Normally when it's cold (like today) I go into hibernation mode.  Like right now, I'm laying on my couch, under my blankets and my kids are playing the Wii.  I don't want to be outside right now.  But I did manage to force myself to do my workout right after breakfast.

Speaking of breakfast, so proud of myself again.  I made Taylor ham and eggs for the kids, and I only had 1 piece of Taylor ham for myself.  I hardly ever make it, so I considered it a special treat.  The other major change I've made is that I haven't had dessert in a week!  Me.  The dessert-aholic, with the biggest sweet tooth known to man, has not had a formal dessert in a week.  I've been sticking to my 4 M&M's a day.  I have 2 after lunch and 2 after dinner and that's it.  I get my chocolate fix and I'm done with it.  Some people might think that this is a slippery slope, and I can understand that.  But for right now it's helping me.  If I get to a point where I start going overboard, I will have to come up with something else.

So that's all I've got for today, hope you're all enjoying your weekend!

Just a Quick Thanks

Thanks for the comments guys, so good to be back!  It's very motivational for me to see that despite everything, you guys are still here, so thank you for that.  DB, I am so down for Avon By The Sea, I will look into when and we'll get it done! 

I tried quinoa for the first time this week.  I had a black bean one.  It was sooo good, but damn was it spicy!  I felt like I was eating like 4 alarm chili or something!  I have another flavor I'm going to try this week.  I do think I didn't cook it long enough though, it was still kind of crunchy.  That's not supposed to be crunchy, right?

I have a busy day today, so I'm going to keep this short and sweet.  I have to run to Shop Rite, my son has his first t-ball game of the season, and I need to get my workout it.  So enjoy your Saturday everyone!

Long Hiatus

Well I'm back.  I'm a good 35 lbs heavier than what I was in September and October, but I'm back.  I've been half assed OP since mid March and full blown OP for about 2 weeks.  I feel like the opposite of Ned Stark right now.  Summer is coming.....

Anyway, lots of crazy things have been happening in my life, I've been very stressed and allowed myself to deal with that by eating whatever I wanted.  Sometimes I think I'll never learn.  I have really missed posting, and reading your posts.  I haven't just been ignoring the blogging world, my Facebook and Twitter were almost non existent for quite some time.

I've been really trying hard to get back into the swing of things.  I have started training for a 5K, I'm hoping to do one in June.  (Sorry Kelly, I looked into the zombie thing, and while I'm all for running a 5K, doing so while being chased by zombies is not exactly my thing lol).  I also re-started Jillan Michaels Ripped in 30.  This was my 2nd day in a row.  I have been doing the track at a local park which actually has a measured 5K trail.  I've been walk/jogging.  I'll get there.

I went to the mall today and bought a new bikini, which I hope to be in by August.  It's a black push up triangle top and cheetah print bottoms (you know I had to, this IS Jersey after all!).  So that's my motivation. 

I want to try and go back to posting at least 4-5 times per week.  I hope I can stick with it.  I tried to restart right after new years, and clearly that didn't happen.  Oh, and as for my official WI (which was yesterday, as usual) 155.2.  I was 158 at the start of the month, so while it's coming off slowly, it IS coming off, which is the important thing.  And again, I've only really been dedicated for a week (last weekend I slipped up big time, but caught myself and was right back OP on Monday).  So that's it.  I'm going to try and get caught up on some of your blogs, hope you've all been well!