My entire life I have been battling my weight. I have always always always been successful when it comes to losing weight. I am the weight loss queen. While keeping my food down and without the aide of diet pills I have been known to drop 3-4lbs a week. That's not including my 1st week. My 1st week dieting ever back when I was in high school I dropped 14lbs. No joke. Now that I'm a bit older (late 20's) it's more like 5-6lbs the 1st week, and sometimes if I'm really committed the 2nd and 3rd weeks as well.
I am done with the up and down roller coaster, I have gained this weight for the last time and I am going to lose it for the last time. When I was pregnant with my son I gained a whopping 108lbs. Yes, I took eating for two quite literally. I dropped 40lbs of it before I got pregnant with my daughter and put it all back on. After I had her I dropped every last pound, and got down to my original pre pregnancy weight, only to gain 55 of it back. Last year I got to within 15lbs of my goal, and didn't manage to move the scale for a whole 2 months, at the end of which I said "Screw this" and started gaining again.
I am currently 64.6lbs heavier than I would like to be (I have rounded it up to 65 it's just easier) and I have had it. I'm sick of not feeling well, being tired all the time, being self concious, not having clothes that fit. I am just sick of being fat. I have two children I need to be setting an example for and I feel like I am failing them.
Officially I started yesterday. I am weighing in at 179.6, which is much too much for my tiny 5'0" frame. I need to get to 115. Okay, let's do this......
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