I Really Don't Wanna

I really just don't feel like going to the gym.  I think it's the cold weather, I don't even want to get out of bed let alone go work out at the gym.  But I haven't been there in a week.  My 2 free months are up which means now I'm paying for this membership.  You would think that since I'm paying for this it would be extra motivation to use it.  Obviously not.

This weekend wasn't bad in terms of food.  I used 8 weeklies the whole time, so that was good.  I'm trying not to be so snacky.  I think I found the solution.  Golden Grahams.  Yesterday I at 2 1/2 servings of Golden Grahams.  It was split between my morning and afternoon snacks and I found that I wasn't really reaching for extras.  So there you go, lol.  If you have a problem, Golden Grahams is the answer.

I am going to really really try and make myself go to step this morning.  My cousin's wedding is THIS Friday, so I need to make sure I'm good to go. How do you guys find it in you to go and workout when what you REALLY want to do is stay in your pj's, lay in bed, and read a book?  Because honestly, that's what I want to do once I get the kids to school.....

FINALLY

I am so excited, I really can't even begin to tell you.  Wednesday I got a flyer in the mail, a certain television provider was running a promo for new customers only.  I have been a loyal customer to another provider for 7 years.  I have always been happy with the service and the programs, but this new offer was going to save me over $300 this year alone, PLUS a whole bunch of freebies.  So I switched and for the first time EVER, we have on demand!  PLUS some premium channels for free for quite an extended period of time.  We all know what this means, right?  This means that for the next however many weeks I will be spending my nights watching Game of Thrones (hence the title of this), The Tudors, Dexter.....oh the excitement!  It got installed yesterday and I am seriously hooked.  And so are the kids.  All I had to say was Phineas & Ferb complete seasons and they let out squeals of delight.

I've been a huge slacker in the workout department this week.  I need to get back on that.  I've been putting in more hours at work.  With winter right around the corner I am going to need some serious money to be able to heat the house.  So admittedly the exercising has taken a back seat.  I'm still tracking and staying OP as far as eating goes.  I did have a splurge Wednesday, I was just so snacky.  But I had the weeklies for it and counted.  So that's it.  It's family night so I'm going to go cuddle with my kids and try to stay out of the fridge ;)  Happy Friday!

Woah, What?

Yesterday I had to go into work.  There is this woman, L, at the office that I just love.  In fact I went to school with her 2 oldest children.  Her daughter was I think 2 years ahead of me and her son was in my class.  Anyway she is just so sweet and she always has som sort of goodies on her desk and you can just help yourself.  I always look forward to her candy jar.  She gets the fun sizes so I can have one without undoing my whole day.  Anyway I walk in yesterday and *gasp* there's no candy in her jar!  So I walk into the inner office knowing that if there's nothing in the jar, there's usually some Chips Ahoy or something in there.  Well yesterday, darn that L, she had made (and brought in) chocolate chip blondie brownie bars!  OMG, soooo good!  I had two, oops.  And she told me to bring some home for the kids, so of course I did.

Anyway, I tried to calculate how much it was to the best of my abilities.  I looked up a recipe for them on allrecipces.com and figured that since each piece of L's was really a half a piece, that it was probably 300 calories for both.  So I worked it in to my meal planning for the rest of the day and that was that.  I use MFP now more than WW (although I do still calculate my weeklies if I want to go over for the day that helps keep me in check).  I ended up going about 5 PP over yesterday, so not too bad at all.  And of course we all know I had to hop on the scale this morning.  This would be the park where the title of this post comes in.  116.6.  I was so stunned I checked 3 times and it was exactly the same.  Which means that on the WW scale I would be 116.2.  How in the heck did I do that???  You know what, I don't really care how I did it!  I am ONE freaking pound away from my goal.  ONE.  I really can't believe that after my crazy outing last week I was able to drop 2 pounds, especially since I really haven't exercised as much as I did over the summer.  Actually, with my weight being as low as it is, I really didn't think I could still drop 2 pounds in a week no matter how "good" I was.  I really want to go to WI tomorrow and just double check that number, but I don't want to face them.  Isn't that weird?  Usually people don't want to go when they've had a "bad" week.  I don't want to go because last time they told me I was losing too much.  Although that's probably because my WW goal weight is 128 and I'm more than 10 lbs below that.  Whatever.  I'm still within the healthy weight ranges chart for my age and height, and I have no plans of going below 115.  I'm good here.

So anyway, that's that.  I have to get the kids ready for school and then head to kickboxing.  Have a great one!

Short n Sweet

So yesterday was awesome.  I made the kids chocolate chip pumpkin pancakes for breakfast.  Then they helped me make apple pumpkin muffins.  While we waited for them to cook, we cuddled up and watched Charlie Brown.  Then we headed outside for an hour before having lunch.  After that we got in the car and I parked at my mom's.  I told them I had a surprise for them and we walked down to the street fair.  A made a sand art bracelet, R asked for a toy, they both got balloon animals, saw the petting zoo and went down the inflatable slide.   Once all my money was spent we came home curled up in my bed together and watched Phineus & Ferb.  Then it was back outside until dinner.  Awesome, awesome day.

Today I am headed to Stacy's step class, then not really sure what I'm doing.  I do need to get some work done, as well as some laundry.  Work around here never seems to be done!  I've really been slacking in my weight training lately.  I'm trying to get back on a good schedule with that.  My work outs in general have been lack luster unless I can find my way to the gym.  And I have no excuse today.  I go about 9 hours of sleep, no reason to be all sluggish and dragging my feet.  Anyway I'm going to keep this short and sweet since I did oversleep this morning.  Have a great day!

Welcome Back

I have got to say I really miss daily blogging.  Life has just been hectic lately and my internet connection has been touchy.  Anyway, I went on a date Thursday night to Applebees and I went balls to the wall.  I ordered first, I got the bacon cheddar cheesburger which if you remember from when I went out with Big Mama T is like 970 calories/26 PP.  But I figured what the hell.  Just one night.  So then my date orders his AND the appetizer sampler.  Oh man.  I did awesome with that though.  I took 2 mozz sticks, 2 wings, 1 quesadilla, and like 5 chips and 1 teaspoon of the spinach dip.  Normally I would have just devoured the whole thing.  THEN we went to Dairy Queen.  Guess what I got.  The peanut butter bash.  I still haven't looked up the nutrition info for that because I really don't want to know.  It was a lot bigger than I thought it was going to be.

It felt good to be able to go out and have whatever I wanted.  It didn't feel so good after I ate it.  I felt soooo sick.  So sick.  The ice cream was totally worth it, but next time I'll get either the 7oz steak with veggies or the 1/2 chicken caesar for my entree.  The burger was not worth the tummy ache.  And I made it to spin class Friday morning.  It was so tough to get through, I felt so sluggish but I was so happy when I was done.  Yesterday I did FE C4C.  Not sure what I'm doing today.  I kind of want to go to kickboxing, but may just end up working out here at home.

And of course I had to hop on the scale.  Now Thursday I was 118.2.  Yesterday I was up to 120.6!  I figured it was mostly still bloat and all the grease sitting in my stomach.  Today I am back down to 118.6, so I'm only up .4.  Not too bad. 

I think I'm either going to skip work today and go Tuesday instead or just head in there super early (like in a half hour or so) because there's a street fair going on in town today and I want to take the kids.  I was unable to work yesterday because they were recarpeting.  It's nice to have a weekend where I can just be with the kids.  And I really want just one day where we don't HAVE to do anything, which is why I'm considering skipping the gym.  Yesterday we had soccer so I was running out the door even though it was Saturday.

So anyway, that's what's been going on around here.  I'm still reading you guys every chance I get.  Hope you're enjoying your weekend!

Frustration & Craziness

I just can't see it.  I look in the mirror and I don't see a skinny person.  And I don't "feel" like a skinny person.  What's a skinny person supposed to feel like anyway?  I saw a friend of mine last week that I haven't seen in a year and a half.  We've been friends literally our whole lives, since we were 3.  Well, she's a year younger than me, so she was 2, but whatever.  And she was always so thin and pretty and everything I always wanted to be.  And every time I stood next to her I felt so.....frumpy.  Well now, we're about the same.  I may even weigh less than her .  But standing next to her I still felt like the fat friend.  Why?  Will this horrible feeling of being the fat, frumpy, unattractive friend EVER go away?  I really wish I knew how to get past this.

Anyway, school is in full swing.  I have only been to he gym once this week.  I had every intention of going today, but my friend was in need of transportation, so I skipped.  I won't be going tomorrow since I have to go to work in the morning.  I WILL be at spinning Friday morning no matter what.  Saturday I can't, R has soccer and I just found out that they are now accepting 4 year olds, so A will b joining this week.  She's been asking to do soccer for a while now.  R's session is from 10-11 and A's will be 11-12.  And I WILL be at the gym Sunday, Monday, and Wednesday this coming week.  And I will NOT use not going to the gym as an excuse not to exercise.  I did go for an hour long walk yesterday with my daughter, so while it's not great, it's better than nothing.

Anyway sorry this is so short, I need to get ready for the PTO meeting tonight.  I really want to be as involved as I can, I think it's very important.

Bad Blogger

I feel like I've been a bad blogger latley.  It's just been nuts between the kids being in school, work, the gym, soccer....I feel like I've barely had time to breathe let alone blog.  I have been more diligent in my tracking and I made it to the gym today after having took yesterday off from working out completely.  I took Stacy's step class.  Man did it feel good to be back!

Can I say just how much I LOVED today's weather?  It totally felt like fall and I loved every second of it.  After picking up A from school, I decided she and I would spend our afternoon appl picking, so that's what we did.  10 freaking pounds of apples!  I'm going to take some of them, throw them in the food processor and make apple cinnamon muffins to send to school with my son.  That way he gets some fruit and he thinks he's getting a treat.  It's a win win.  After R got off the bus, we immediately headed to the park.  They got to play for about an hour before we came home to do homework (which went SO much better than last week) and have dinner.

I have been reading your blogs in the morning in betwen my coffee, making breakfast, and getting the kids ready for school.  I try to comment, but sometimes I just am not able to.  I wanted you to know that I DO read them though.  I need to.  So many of you are just so motivational and inspiring to me, even when you're having an "off" day or week or whatever.  It reminds me that it happens to everyone and that the important thing is just to get right back on track.  Hopefully once we're a little more settled I'll be able to post more.  Have a great night!